monitoring ups and downs
highs and low
is there a ratio?
some quota I don't understand?
that the process
- random beyond control -
must have some balance?
Is there a secret waterline?
normality functionality only bearable so long
an unused muscle
reaches capacity, some predetermined scope
mettle fatigue gives way to overflow.
Is there a rule?
every twenty-first, thirteenth, eighth hour?
an optimum interval for respite and recovery?
there is no recovery
overflow trickles into awareness
prickling at my eyelids
triggered by nothing at all
emotional cramp seizing out of nowhere
a trembling compass point
hair trigger fault line
grief like a thirst not to be met by salty tears
they come again.
they must be cried
and no one else can do it for me.