your absence pulls like a sore tooth
crowding out the doings of the day
persistent disconcerting deafening silence
filling the edges of consciousness
the corners of the room
the gap on the sofa
an aching gap disproportionate to the size of you
who are no longer here
The mundane transformed by loss
into feats of overwhelming bravery
like taking toddler steps without a hand to hold
sleeping in a single bed
preparing a meal for one
making mince pies
shopping, signing cards
returning to an empty silent 'home'
the pain of remembering is better than the fear of forgetting
but we don't speak your name enough
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loss sometimes demands to be recognised wallowed bathed submerged in indulged Felt A friend of a friend described it as the "dark luxur... -
not so lost for words these days pouring spewing out in jumbles inspiration of desperation I was not so wordy before nor ever so deeply sile...
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We'd known it was the last time though no one said this task you'd set upon with borrowed help in borrowed hours and days determined...
3 comments:
"the pain of remembering"... reminds me of the old line "better to have loved & lost than never to have..."
but far more PAINFUL!!
hey I just lost your blog and went to ANOTHER limp lettuce: http://limplettuce.blogspot.com without the hyphen...
btw which is your MAIN blog btw?
sorry! I am easily confused!!!
:-\
that dull persistant pain of loss. They say time heals.. it doesn't, time dulls the pain though.
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